wow...agk jahat my title for today. tp aku rs, tu la pn kebenarannya (klu ikut dr pe yg aku dgr). mlm smlm im havin some chit chat wit my bff, cek puan olin... ntah cemane borak punya borak tbe2 kuar story psl tmpt keje lm aku. n also some story about the people too la kan. my bff ckp, dia sedey dgr mcm2 citer psl aku (yes, of course it alwiz b the baaad things). owh, perlu ke state kt cni psl pe? x perlu la...walau pun aku yakin belog aku neh xde org bc sgt pn, tp xpela i choose to keep it by myself. i juz want to share my feelings here.
FYI, im n0t having a great time ms keje kt tmpt tu. (frankly speaking la kan...not blaming anyone, tp yep, the surroundings maybe not suitable for me) along 3 years, xde pe sgt pn yg aku gain kt ctu selaen drpd telinga neh disumbat kan dgn pelbagai gossips yg xtaula d mn asas dan kebenarannye. aku ngat aku xkn terlibat la dgn gosip2 tu...rupe2nyer, diorg smpt buat gosip yg lebih teruk bout me. o0o, dpn baek, mulut manis je kan...tp blakang duk kata aku mcm aku neh pmpuan s****l sgt!~ aku xde la baek sgt pn dgn diorg, tp sbb da keje sesame, nk xnk, u hav to mix around people jugak la kan. n aku mmg x cmpur urusan peribadi sesape pn d sana n i expect they do the same thing too. k, bout personal thing, mmg la dl aku de a few probs wit personal life at that time especially this 'boyfren thing' n financial probs... but itu x effect sape2 pn, ape2 pn or even my own work. personal is personal n aku x campur adukkan bnd2 tu dgn keje. lg pn, tht time, u muda n u tgal alone without ur family, yes i admit sometimes i jd hilang arah. but then i know my limit n i dont go beyond it. n these people, i dont know why they really like to jaga tepi kain org sgt!~ klu aku x cerita sndr pn, they all suke je nk wat spekulasi yg ntah hapehape without knowing the hujung pangkal. u know wut, siap sgup curi tgk aku punyer 'very personal' documents n cr no. telefon rumah kt kpg n called my parents nk citer psl hal aku. dan itu adalah perkara yg aku sgt x bleh terima sbb da mula libatkan mak abh aku plak...n i know sape yg buat keje tu, n aku mmg blom lg terbukak hati nk maaf kn those people yg telah buat my parents sgt ssh hati! even aku ssh mcm mane pn, aku belum terfikir nk ssh kn hidup mak abh aku...tp bcos of them, mak abah aku sgup dtg dr kpg juz to find out what is really happen...x ke da nyusah kn diorg? n puas hati diorg la dpt kucar kacir kan hidup org mcm tu??? da la abah aku tu de penyakit jantung! colleague ape la mcm neh....hal2 kerja xnk amik tau, bnd2 personal yg xde kne mengena lngsng dgn keje yg jd keutamaan....nmpak sgt korang neh bermentaliti rendah!
k...itu my story ms peringkat awl aku keje kt ctu. my heart really hurts by that time, but then i realized it surely taught me something. i dont just believe in people as easy as before. i put a very high limit between me n 'them'! people keep talking and i dont give a damn... nk lari mn? sumber rezeki kt ctu, then just face it. lg pn, bkn nye ko salah kan, just sbb mulut busuk org len, nama ko jd busuk. then da hujung2 hr aku kt ctu pn, diorg masih lg keep story tentang keburukan aku....plus de la gossip2 yg ntah hapehape lg psl aku yg ditokok tambah dr sehari ke sehari...wow! x sangka aku popular yeh smp diorg sumer x leh nk stop bercerita....thank you so much!~ n smlm aku dgr lg...tp ntah la. this time aku da x rasa pe...rs mcm lawak pn ada. mmg btul, aku gelak ms aku dpt taw tu....hahahahaha.
and...my bff told me, org yg kutuk tu aku baru je accident. n ada sorg lg yg terlibat dgn kisah aku yg lama dulu, a few months after that,dia kne strok sebelah muka...aku mmg x g tgk la dia kt hospital. ada aku kesah? well, mmg x patut aku ckp mcm tu...tp kdg2 aku sndr pn keliru patut ke aku rs kesian ngn diorg......xde la aku nk kata diorg jd cmtu sbb khianat kt aku...tp, itu la...mmg aku xde rs ape pn pd diorg nye musibah. lantak lah!~
owh ye...besides of my personal problems, aku xde la pulak nk sengaja meng 'EL'2 kn diri sesuka hati n MC 3-4 hr dlm seminggu sepanjang aku keje kt ctu!~
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