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haiiii...tetibe je hati neh merasa bosan.  kdg2 rs mrh kt dr sndr pn ada. x reti nk berfikir. pe yg aku bwat neh btul ke? pe yg aku bwat neh pe yg aku btul2 nak bwat ke? atau aku bwat sbb aku  fikir "dah la dahlia...enuff is enuff".  sdg kan klu ikut hati neh rs mcm masih mahu lg mencari...tp, klu asyik cr je, smp bl nk berhenti? slh ke aku klu aku masih lg cr pe yg terbaek utk aku? slagi aku blum btul2 jmp pe yg aku mau? tp aku akn jmp ke pe yg terbaek tu? wut if, yg aku jmp selepasnya, adalah yg lebih truk dr yg sebelumnya? mmg btul, kita x semestinya akn dpt pe yg kita nak....tp, knp aku x leh nk fhm2 perkara tu walaupun da lm aku tau dan da lm aku sedar? ego dr sndr kah? mungkin....

2,3 days...

sejak 2-3 hr neh fikiran aku keep thinkin of s0me1 la...aiya....dalia, jgn mcm2 la. very dangerous la u!pe yg ada da cukup baek...juz apreciate k! at least, tht is wut i keep tellin' myself.....but still...huh! hate da feelin. i h0pe it will fade away a.S.a.P.....Pray for me....cos i can't afford any loss  nem0re. enough wit all da mistakessss

2010...juz another year...

Title yg sguh x bersemangat kan? well, at least tht is wut i feel rite n0w. aku x sedar pn sbnrnyer kiter neh da masuk ke tahun yg baru....as the time goes by, n0t much i do for myself. juz follow wit the flow. ;)  instead of im gettin older n older, i keep doin mistake by mistakes. tp x la sumer nyer bur0ks...adela 1,2 bnd yg baek happened to me...Alhamdulillah. so this 2010, wit lots of thing to be happen then, how i wish it will be the starter to a bright new phase for all of us ya!~

Owh,,New Year Celebration hr tu, im n0t doin nething. juz stay at h0me watchin tv n wait for my Along dtg hnta barang....(giler penat tgu dia smp tgh mlm buta....even duduk tgk tv je p0wn, jenuh taw!) dia tu p0wn 1, ssh btui klu wat appointment ngn org camneh...bz kalah kn PM!~ yer sguh bz ker x, dia je yg taw...heh heh heh. Urm, New Year Celebration neh sbrnyer, i never celebrate pn....hehe.slalunye mmg d umah sajerrr...maleh erk....jln konfirm jem n aku bkn la org yg bleh sabar ngn bnd2 yg menyesakkan neh. mak rimas la nyahhhhhh.haha.

k lah! gtg... daaaaaaa!

MiSSi0n aCComPLisHeD!~

As wut i've been published b4 this...my trip to Penang wit the gossip gurlzzz, Misz EN n Misz F (haha!!) has been held from 17 - 20.12.2009. pe prasaan? sr0n0t! best! n most of our planning goes smoothly...  even got few probs such as flight delayed n struggling wit the unexpected rainy day but still, we enjoyed the trip.

Penginapan....sp0nsored by Misz F, well, rumah dia la (kt kg. Melayu tuu)..pe lg.  wit a very warmth welcome from her family. her parents n sisters, very sporting! thank u very much for ur kindness n makin me n misz EN feel comfortable. ada masa nti klu Misz F ke n family nk p jln2 kt jhr, bitau la....bleh i provide pe yg patut. hehe....

Pengangkutan...besides airasia (n0t sponsored yeh, fees byr sndr), logistik d Penang dibantu oleh Misz F's sis, Faten...viva silver dia yg chumell itu la yg bwk kami jln2 pusing Penang tu. ada masa, parents Misz F pn join skali berjln (fetch kitorg kt airport, g Pesta, hnta kitorg ke airport smula) so, we all nek keta ayh Misz F....waja 3 pintu...hehehehhe. (jgn mara) nehow, sgt sng la brada d sana, not much prob nk grak2....

Makanan...kitorg sempat la merasa a few makanan Penang yg menjadi tarikan such as char kuey teow, mee mamak n of cos, nasi kandaq nyerrrr....all suggested by Misz F. well, taiko kami d Penang kan. sp lg yg lebih expert di antara kami neh melaenkan dia....sedap2 jugak makanannyer. n ada juga yg kami mkn d umah, masakan Misz F's mom. tima kaseh. sepanjang berada d penang, mmg prut neh full lah! tu psl klu tgk gmba2 g Penang, pwut aku jer enterframe!

Places we went....1st, gurney drive (sebaek smp dr kl, g mkn nasi kandaq, pastu pusing2 smbil amik gmba), 2nd, penang hill (the next day), 3rd Kek Lok Si, 4th Pesta Penang.....5th Roupe Walk(the 3rd day), 6th Rumah P. Ramlee, 7th Youth Park, 8th batu feringghi. i am very pleased to have such experience, memandangkan aku x pnh explore penang pn sblm neh.

So the conclusion is this trip was fascinating n our missi0n to be holidaying together2 been accomplished! penutup tahun yg menyeronokkan bg aku.....now i can start my new year wit s0me new agendas which, i haven't plan yet!~ mery x'mas n hepy new year!!!

TiK t0k TiK t0K!~

haa.itulah bunyi setiap saat yg aku sdg lalui skang.... menghitung detik beb! wut 4? goin' to penang laaa.  hehe...wit gurls frens. s0k nk g penang yey!~ flight time - 1935hrs by airasia. ec0nomy jer. who's goin - Cik Farah (the leader, sbb dia org penang pure punyer)hehehe, cik Anne (miss enterframe) kuangkuangkuang n me! 3 org jer... y am i so excited? cos i've never been there since many2 years i go thru my life wit loads of experience, n penang, none of it!~ walaupun sekadar penang je, n most of u all mungkin ada yg da nek boring da g penang tu, tp aku? langsung x dpt bayang penang tu cemane keadaannyer taw. so 4 this trip i want to take this chance to explorace..haha explorace la sgt! xde la...trip neh aku hrp akn menjadi trip yg best n memorable la. nti aku nk amik gamba byk2 (menumpang kamera cik N n cik F, sbb aku xd0p kamera) hehehe. even aku sbnrnya menyampah nk tgk gamba2 aku yg smakin lm smakin menampakkan kegerm0okskan aku....but, bwat2 yakin diri je la yeh!~

N, 2moro also, i'm gona b on leave. yey! xyah g keje...i'm goin out wit my best buddy. temankn dia hepy2 kn dr dia yg kunun nye sejak berkawen neh, dia menghadapi TEKANAN...tekanan katanyerrr... bkn kawen tu 'sedap'kah???kuikuikui. xpelah, wuteva she wants to do, i'll support! chaiy0k! dia hepy, aku hepy jugeks....

Okies....that's all 4 n0w...C ya' after da vacation, wit perhaps all the best pictures n all the best m0ment!~

Shoes sHo0es sssyyyhhhhh

This Lately, perangai memb0roskan dwet aku neh smakin menjd2....da tgk citer the confessions of a shopaholic tu berkali-kali p0n aku x reti2 lg!~ erm, tp dlm citer tu dia dpt boypren emsem beb, da la emsem, kaya plak tuh...no w0nder la aku x ambil iktibar sgt kan. hahahahha!~ dan yg pelik nyer aku neh, bnd len aku xde la nk sh0ppin sgt...tp ada 1 menatang neh nm dia K.A.S.U.T, teramat la suke sgt aku ngn menatang neh. dwet aku abes disebabkn menatang neh la!~ dlm bln neh sj suda 4 pasang kasut aku beli bl0m kira bln lps, n bln sebelum2nya...walaup0n bkn la berjenama mahal spt nine west ke, christian louboutin ke, manolo blahnik ke, jimmy choo ke or yg plg2 cikai pn guess....wah! tp, bg kerani kerajaan cam aku neh, 4 psg kasut cap ayam dlm ms x sampai sebulan tu, kira agk d luar kemampuan aku sbnrnya. dan aku sedang pening memikirkan p0ket aku yg semakin menipis tuh...hehe pdn muka aku! mkn plastik mee segera la aku pasneh.berlagak dwet byk beli kasut bebanyak.... da tu, aku nk beli bj, asyik frust je bl time fitting bj, TAK MUAT!!!! hangin....tp kasut, cam santekkkk je d kaki haku. hehehehe.kira, lepaskn tekanan perasaan x dpt beli baju tu dgn menggantikannya dgn membeli kasut...

so, lps neh, aku kne diet la...bkn diet mkn yeh. tp diet P0KET. diet mkn tu cam pyh sket la, aku kan Pencinta Makanan Tegar. tp, nk diet pe nyer....lps neh nk fly to penang plaks. nk p bazirkan dwet d penang plak beb ngn cik F + cik N. jgn jelesssssssss. nti blk penang, kut lapa xde dwet, aku mkn la kasut2 aku tu.... Daaaaaa. Penang Here I Come!~

Gerrrr...mo0ks...Gerrrr....ram~

Cik Anne suda sound...aku x update2 blog neh...bnd yg sm jerrr katanya. hehe. ha kannn....aku da kata, aku neh 1 of the very laziest person in da world utk bwat bnd2 camni. but cos of xnk ketinggalan in da world of globalization neh, (haha, start da ayt2 mengarut neh) maka ku gagahkn jari n ku putarkan jua akal fikiran ku ini.

Memandangkan aku masih l0m jd expertise lg bnd2 IT neh, so i think for this moment i've just put stories bout wut i feel n wut i'm doin' n wuteva silly things yg aku terfikir kan...

hmm...bc tak title kt ats tu td? Gerrrr...mo0ks...Gerrrr...ram! sememangnya itu yg aku sdg hadapi n aku sdg rs skang neh. Ssh gak jd org pmpuan neh. bnd2 camtu pn leh jd complicated. well...it's about beauty kan. girl mn yg xnk cantek??? back to myself, sememangnya aku neh dilahirkan semulajadi "sihat", bulat n tembam. :) tp ms beby, klu bulat n tembam tu mmg la cute...bl da jd ank dara? x rupa ank dara da...mcm mak dara ada. korg xyah tipu aku la....aku tau. huhue. i am fat since i was born 'til i grew up being a teenage girl. ms kecik2 dl mmg x pnh fikir pn psl diet ker per ker. no worries at all. even org sekeliling such as kwn2 slalu mempersendakan aku, welll.....biasa la..mulut bdk2 kn....especially boys...aku mmg da biasa sgt dgn kata2 bdk2 lelaki yg duk kata aku gemuk la, huduh la...tu kata depan...lum lg kata2 yg diorg duk ngata aku dr blkg....but let it be lah kn....bnd da lps sumer. lg pun, kidsssss.......n termasuk lah bl aku jmp sedara mara, sepupu sepapat....juz all the same thing. nk ikut trasa hati, tipu la klu x trase sikit pn. ye la, klu mak aku sndr pn sound, tkt tgk aku makin besar....nk xnk, pedih jugak la kn. cuma ms tu, lom timbul lg kesedaran nk jd cantek or at least normal cam kwn2 laen...

Aku xtau la tahap kegemukan aku tu cemane, tu org len la yg nilai....tp bg aku, klu da org kata berisi tu, gemuk la maknenye.....by the time my age is 14, i've read an entertaiment magazine...URTV kut. aku terbaca la kisah ank si dilla hussein tu suda kurus gilerrr....sp ntah nm dia, aku pn x hengat. tp bdk tu mmg gemuk la...gemuk giler...gemuk lg dr aku ms tu...hehe. (perasan jerrr) so, tibe2 aku rs mcm urmmm.....tercabar kut. aku x hengat pe yg aku rs ms tu. tp aku mmg x puas hati la yg dia tu da kurus! hahahahaaaa.....gile2 pny jeles ms tu. secara tibe2 nye jugak, semangat aku berkobar2 nk jd cam dia gak. drastically after i read it, i've changed. segala tabiat mkn aku yg suka mkn nasi tu, aku buang terus. aku x fikir pnjg da. pe yg ada ms tu, hny disiplin diri. nasi, x sentuh lngsng....mknan ruji? of cos la roti beb. mula2 aku mkn 4 keping pg n tgh hr. kira masih byk tu kan....ye la, xnk drastik sgt sbb nti pewut boncet aku neh terkezut pleksss.... then lm2 aku reduce jd 2 keping jer. tu pn roti kosong semata-mata. exercise? of cos la kne bwat beb......tp sbb aku sgt x suka jogging, aku gnti dgn xtvt yg lbh menarik....mari berjoget! hehe. mlm2 buta plak tu...ms mak abh aku cbuk tdo, aku psg muzik kuat2....haha. gila sket la.tp tu yg aku suka bwat.da tu diorg x bising pn...n ada ms, time xde org kt umh, aku wat la keje2 umah yg bleh kuar peluh.mcm tu je exercise aku.  nothing much pn. bab pemakanan la agk perit sket...tgk ns goreng ke ns lemak ke...sebelah mata je la...eh, kne pejam mt lah. dude, aku nk mkn aym goreng pn, kasi serap minyak gune tisu dl taw! perit x perit......tp, alhamdulillah, dlm ms 6 bln, my weight......from 66kg reduce to 56kg. 1st time in my life, i reduced weight! n...it cntinue to reduce.....untill my weight is 51kg. ms tu hepy gilerrrr....aku rs normal sgt. nmpk lebih kurg cam kwn2 len. bdn pn rs ringan.....cnfidence level increased. everything seems to be positive to me by tht time.

semua org2 yg mengata aku, tutup mulut. ms tu br la seb0k nk puji aku. termasukla mak aku. xpela...adat manusia mcm tu kn. aku pn mungkin mcm tu jugak tnpa disedari.

tp tu dl beb! skang? heh....neh la yg wat aku geram. sejak aku memulakan kerjaya sbg penjawat awam neh, i think i'm going back to the past. to where i was. to who i were. to what i really2 am! penimbang berat tu da kembali menjd musuh ketat aku! hehe....but im not blaming anyone la....i wont give reasons. aku x suka beri alasan ats pe jua yg berlaku atas kelalaian dr sndr....cuma pe yg wat aku sakit hati is, knp aku rs terganggu sgt klu berat bdn aku naek? pe slh nye jd org gemuk? as long as u healthy, it doesn't  matter wether ur fat or ur slim.juz make sure ur health is good. right?but, no....aku xde prasaan mcm tu....aku nk slim. knp aku x bleh trima aku gemuk sdgkn pd asalnya, aku mmg mcm tu? ghosh....only God knows the feeling. even though i try to live happy as what i am now, no, im not totally happy. it's killing me from deep inside.segala kata2 yg pnh aku dgr dl, aku da dgr blk skang....eee...berisi nye....lorrr...gemuknyer...knp gemuk neh? tu sumer da kmbali mnjadi halwa telinga aku.

mak da seb0k suh aku diet semula....huh, mak....itu je la. ye la....adik beradik , aku sorg je yg gemuk semula jadi, pmpuan sorg je plak tu...risau la agknye kut. takut pakwe lari la..xde org nak la....katanye la.....xpela mak....org trima je pe adenye. diet semula??? hehe...klu nk, mmg boleh....cuma aku x pasti aku akn berjaya utk ulangi semula sumer keperitan, kepahitan yg aku da lalui dl tu....gemuk perit, nk kurus lg la perit........anyhow, prasaan utk trn kn brt bdn smula tu mmg sntiasa ada. kita tgk la cemane nti ye...doa'kn aku berjaya smula! cik Fara...amacam?????ahha ahahahhaaa