Getting Bored...

hai...xtau la..hati ni makin lama mcm makin rasa xde apa2 plak.  Salah aku ke? Salah dia ke? Dia xde nk ckp pe2 pn...komplen pn tak...abes cemano? bhy ni bl aku da mula rs b0san...  xnk la bnd2 x bek happen. xde ms da utk bnd2 mcm ni.  cuba utk x fikir kn sgt...mmg x leh fikir sgt pn.  nti jd desperate plak.... tp  dlm xnk jd desperate tu, i'm more likely to be like that.  oh no, desperate??? xnk lah!  malu.  tp slh ke klu desperate? ke, aku je yg ngada2 sbb tgk org len da step ahead, tp aku tang tu gak?  knp lak nk ikut org len kan? your time will come itself... (part of myself says) well, bila difikir2 balik, bila dinilai pd dr sndr, aku sndr pn x sure yg aku ni leh hidup dgn org len utk sepanjang hidup aku.  but on the other hand, i do not want to live alone as im getting older soon n very soon...  i love families... but the idea to have my own fam, i'm confused for sometime!  dgn all relationships yg aku lalui xde yg tunjuk ke arah yg positif, this new 1 i really hope i can make it...but it seems like, im gonna lose again.  im afraid i'll be giving up.  relationship before this pn, semuanya aku yg give up dulu, of course it base on some reasons yg make me really2 sick with that 'man'! so, is the problem beginning from me?  or maybe i just expecting too much perfections in a relationship while me, myself isn't good enough for it?  well, i've posted a similar thing about this before this.  but i stand still until today... i'm wondering why... =) i guess still have faith in him.  but by the time i post this, i'm so blur.  because i'm completely don't feel anything for 'him'.  ghosh!~ help me. i just don't want to leave anyone anymore.  i've done it for several times, and yeah...shame on me.  what if someday people do the same way to me???  wake up dahlia, forget your dreams...run for the real!~

MaLam MenggU!~

h0w's weekend? my weekend 4 this time is reallllly a weekend...  y? on friday nite i hang 0ut wit p0kcek g0in to tht very the cheapest n s0o the jambans k-0ke at ampang...hikhik! (but the s0und system is quite ok th0) after tht we went 2 the d0wnt0wn at cheras.  buyin s0me things...(also cheap2 punyer thing jerrr...)  so, i reached h0me ar0und 2.30a.m...very the lateeee.  i slept ar0und 3a.m.  the next m0rning, my planned wit kak ZzZzana (she really likes sleeping, tht's y i put ZzZz...hikhik!!) at 11.30a.m g0in 2 k.L again...urm, s0go n the jln TAR also the masjid jamek (but couldn't make it to masjid jamek, c0s already tired n kak ZzZzana c0mpleted her goal).  She wants t0 buy tud0ngs...i want t0 buy a few things also (juz A FEW okay!) but then, am juz like can't contr0l myself...i end up buyin a l0t of thing which is really n0t on list!!!  each store i st0pped, i'll buy.  gh0sh, i hate sh0ppin!~  haha 

then, we're g0in back.  juz OTW, an idea p0ped up....  kak ZzZana realy felt like she wants t0 g0 to the beach.... beach? g0t beach in k.L? :)  oh no.... means tht it must b out of k.L...so i suggested we went t0 p.D... the time is 7.00p.m already but she agreed.   we start callin' s0me frens t0 j0in us.  luckily, misz F want t0 f0llowed n Encip Alem also...actually, we kidnapped him! hehe... (he's hardly dying t0 watch EPL) so, there was 4 of us.  fr0m putrajaya ar0und 8.00p.m reached p.D on 9.00p.m ++.  then we've waited for misz F boyfren, Mr D.... ab0ut 10p.m we met.  then, we ate n then we g0 sight-seeing in the dark of the nite, feel the rush of the ocean. annnnnnd............a place tht became my new dream (haha!) the legend ntahapehapentah...very nice n c0zy n beautiful n luxury place.  (we lepaks2 jerrr kt ctu n we snapped2 s0me n0t so nice pics of me (tp, gmba diorg tu cantek la) juz me!...i'm s0 c0mots n selekeh! x sukaaaa)  n then, we went h0me...otw beck...my cars temprature g0t high...damn!~  d0n want 2 story b0ut it...bc0s of it, we arrived h0me at 6 in the m0rning...................................really2 tired.  i slept at 7a.m  wake up ar0und 1.30pm.  can't say anything, to0o tired....tht sunday n0t g0in newhere.  i canceled my plan wit oLin to LaLaLa...s0ry memeks..

here's s0me of the pics....

seronok berpoyosan.....

~bercanda di tepian k0lam. ahaks!~

hai...ms neh ngat nk balik da....upernyer sempat sgah kedai mamaks dulu min0m2

So, this week, d0n't have any plans yet...im thinking!

TaK SeRoNoT

;)  slalu plak aku update bel0g skang neh!~  xdela, bkn pe...juz t0 express my feelings.  klu byk feel2 yg aku rs, byk la yg aku p0st up here...  i'm havin difficulties t0 express my feelings to pe0ple out there, so t0 release a lil' burden of my heart i cho0se to share it here. 

fr0m last week lg aku da rs x sr0n0k n sumthing wr0ng s0mewhere wit s0meone tht used t0 b very2 kind t0 me.  i d0n't kno y but i can feel tht i've been neglecting so suddenly.  gh0sh, i really d0n't like this!~  im n0t sure wut went wr0ng, but i guess tht guy is givin' up wit me after i rejected him.  maybe? (haha...prasan bagus aku neh)  it's hard 4 me 2 deal wit this kind of thing...wut a mess!  or is it juz my feelings???  hmm...d0no wut 2 do, juz let him be...............

beck fr0m away

Yezzaa....i'm beck! agak suke la cuti2 dr pekerjaan neh. ;) rs bahagia jerrr. tp tu la, nk wat cemane, hidup neh kne keje...if n0t, ko nk makan hape haaa??? agak2 de x pwince charmin nk dtg minang aku n bg kesenangan dunia akhirat? pastu dia kata "xyah keje la...duk umah je. jg anak2...klu ssh, kita amik maid" w0w!  tu lah...impian melampau2. tht's y x jd kenyataan, sbb x reti2 nk sedar diri, semua bnd nk kne bersua. hahahihihuhu.  so back to my reality life....after g0t on leave since friday to m0nday, here i am at my desk.  wut i've d0ne so far?  ms cuti (bkn cuti sj2 je, ada hal keluarga)  went to klantan...tnh merah. main purpose, my bro g0t engaged.  ngn ore klate ok!  urm, xtau la....aku leh trima ke x sbnrnyer...tp wuteva it is tht's my parents choice n my bro already agreed, so i guess, everything should b okay.  juz pray tht they will get married s0on (next year kut) n live happily ever after (wah, cam fairy tales lak ayat).  i'm hepy 2 c him back in track again wit a lady after gettin' very devastated due to his past engagement break-up.  (wut past is past la bro...pe nk dikenang2 lg!~ mak pn mmg x bp suka pmpuan tu kan...n c, wut happened? pmpuan tu kawen ngn org len pn, smp skang x branak2 kan? tu la restu org tua tu penting)

ok, end of my bro st0ry, after tht very simple cerem0ny....we went to Rantau Pnjg. ala, jap je pn.  xde pe sgt yg nk beli. sj nk jln je.  sory to my fren...x beli pe2 pn.  (bajet very the sempit sbb g time x gaji..) n then. fr0m klantan we're heading 2 my 1st eldest br0 in Ipoh...folo dia ikut jln grik ntah2 hape2 jln lg ntah yg aku x pnh lalu pn.  very the adventurous jugak la jln dia.  xde jmp jln lurus...ala2 jln nk g camer0n highland tu. da la ms tu da waktu senja masuk ke mlm. urm...takut aku nk tdo...siap de papan tanda gajah melintas lagi...haha. slalu nye lembu je yg lintas yg neh gajah....gila ceruk la.  Alhamdulillah berjaya smpai ke Ip0h dgn slmtnya.  tdo kt umah Along dlm 1 mlm jer.  es0knye, hehe...aku ajk my sis in law g tgk hp baru....yey!~ at last dpt beli hp baru...c0s my hp da rosak, then pnjam lak hp si p0kcek b0os0k tu...aku neh da la ganas pkai hp. kang terhempas2 lak hp orang....so, cpt2 la beli hp sndr....aku beli hp Samsung C0rby yg chumelz tetapi murah tu. (hehe...tenyum smp tinga) chumel bg aku la kan...hmm b0ut this hp, i'm still suit myself to it. x abes xplore lg. dia simple je...tp t0uch skrin.  n bnd2 gajet neh aku x fikir sgt pn. jnji aku leh pkai utk bnd2 basic, ok lah...

ok end of Ipoh story...aku blk tht evening on Sunday 21/3/10.  sgt penat ok.  fr0m thursday nite i travelled.  ye la...dr ptrjy nek bus sorg2 blk kpg kt segamat...pastu next day pg2 da grak g klantam....the next day nye lg fr0m klantam g Ip0h...the next day nye lg fr0m Ipoh blk ke ptrjy blk....yewwwwhhhhh.  byk abes ms duk dlm kete je...  seb bek yesterday i cuti. dpt la rehat2kn bdn sket....  well, sori guys, my p0st usually mmg xde pics.  sbb aku xde kamera digital tuuuu...ahaha.  k la bye...p0st kali neh pnjg kannnnnn. daaaa

Away...

2day am g0in beck 2 ma h0met0wn afta w0rk juz by bus.  will b sendin to da buz station by my p0kcek bus0ok!~ (heee..i loikkkeee) then again the next day will b startin our family official trip to Klantan....d0wh...wut a l0ng distance i'll b g0in thru!! arghhhhhhh. juz h0pin everthing will b d0in fine....very l0ng time haven't go there.  can't imagine anything ab0ut klantan...but i wish i can hav s0me sh0ppin spree a.k.a retail therapy...huhue. n0w, very n0t in the m0od 2 do my w0rk...!!!!  everything is taken awayyyyyyyyyyyy. am n0t here!

SeMaLaM

Yesterday w0rked til late nite...only by 11pm i could reach h0me!~ very tiring n 2day gotta work as usual.  im juz h0pin 2day we all d0n hav 2 stay after w0rkin h0urs nem0re...my plan? g0in 2 gym n do s0me work out.  since last week i juz made it once (it supp0se 2 b 3 days a week), so this week, i'm g0nna repay!  i d0n wanna lose the stamina tht i've gained.  furtherm0re, last week i ate 2 much which makes me really2 w0rry!~ bekfes mkn berat, lunch - nasi, dinner pn nasi gak!~ o0oo damn.  xleh biar keadaan neh....hahhaa... i da la tembun, bertambah2 tembun la nti!  the fact that being fat is t0o hard 4 me....i've started goin 2 gym ab0ut a m0nth n0w, n i think im feelin' gud (but im n0t Lo0kin gud yet...) well, it's okay then, even i dun reduce my weight, at least i gained the stamina.  is better than nothin rite? hmm.....b0s, let me go 2day yeh??? puh leeezzz....................

weekend? wut's that?

Saturday

4.11pm (by the time i compose this)

at work

this weekend will absolutely n0t a weekend...2day n 2moro gotta w0rk!~ d0wh....cpt la abes hal menatang SSR neh.  haha.  abes plan i nk g umah my bro in ip0h. owh, my sis-in-law juz called n she impressed tht i'm w0rkin on public h0liday...yeah rite, impressed yeh, b4 this pn penah je stay w0rkin on weekend...  she said "wah bagus la korg neh, Pencapaian Diutamakan...mcm kak L0ng neh, Rakyat Didahulukan...."rakyat"2 nya di rumah la tu gamaknye.  sape lg klu bkn itu askar kecik yg 4 org tu... Lin, Yaya, Apis n Iddin.  Actually, Ucu mish yew all so much, walaupun korg ssh nk caya yg Ucu neh mmg windu kt korg. (hehe...i used 2 b an evil aunt! sakat diorg tu sana sini)  pastu masa b0rak2 ngn my sis tu, de plak dia menti0n nk g tgk wayang reramai klu i g sana...owh, plus....she said im g0in to giv 'em a treat! owh Thank god im n0t goin...hahaha! (well i kno she wuz juz kiddin).  Neh0w, next weekend kita jumpa ye kak..the whole family.  we're g0in to klantan.  lama gila x g sana smp x ingat da bila last time i went there.  tp, bkn g saje2 je kali neh.  de tujuan...pe tujuan? will be continued......... chi0w!~